WEB
OF DECEPTION
Back
to earth once again to face reality was no joke! In admitting my own
limitations I was beginning to see how foolish and naive I was. For
all I care, this was telling me how little I knew of the outside
world let alone men. What do they want? As an innocent and trusting
young woman (to the point of thinking all that glitters is gold), I
had to learn the hard way. Coming to the realisation that the whole
thing was a trap that the Devil was setting and I was about to fall
into it.
By
the time I was on the verge of getting out I was already drawn into
the web. Stands to reason that Roger's amazing masculine frame,
his bold bright eyes and his charm were just for a season -and the
season was about to expire! Roger was the web and I became the spider
(hence, the moral of the story), i.e. ONCE
YOU FALL INTO THAT WEB, GOD
HELP YOU IF YOU CAME OUT ALIVE!
Deep
deep down, I knew I should not have taken his bedroom for sanctuary
nor give him the wonderful satisfaction for which he craved. After
all he wasn't serious; Moreover, he knew what he was doing; the Devil
was using him to tarnish my innocence and leave me confused. He was
the man with the words to blind me with science; ALL HE
WAS AFTER WAS A BIT OF FUN
('smiles').
Deep
deep down I knew what I wanted. For instance, it takes a strong
Christian to fend off sugar-coated confidence tricksters looking for
a relationship by laying ground rules such as NO
SEX BEFORE MARRIAGE!!!
In
drawing upon my own short-comings and limitations with respect to
educational and financial needs, he was well placed to take advantage
of my situation. AFTER
FIVE MONTHS OF FOOLING AROUND, I SUDDENLY REALISED I
WAS
PREGNANT. This
now caused me to move out of my church sister's house, because she
wasn't prepared to tolerate and uphold the lifestyle I was living!
